A disturbing verse

Normally, before I start visiting the patients, I will go up to the chapel first. The routine is such - Get down from car, go up to chapel to find my ‘tongue’ and ‘heart’, go down and do what needs to be done, get up to chapel to unload and return home.

Usually, there is a Bible verse for the day written on the whiteboard. If I am not too lazy, I usually go to my own church in the morning and it is the same verse that is being used. But if I attend the morning mass, the priest will give a homily and things make better sense.

There was this one morning where there was no mass in my church. So, this verse just doesn’t make much sense to me, “I didn’t come to bring peace but a sword.” It is from Matthew chapter 10.

34″Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword.

You need to read the whole Matthew chapter 10 to get a better understanding. Otherwise, many people will be like those fools who use only this one single verse and claimed that we Christians are out to slay people because our God said so.

Anyway, at the time when I read that single line on the whiteboard, I was pretty disturbed. And freakily, I had a small talk with someone about pursuing what I am doing. I will indeed need a sword to chop off some of my baggages before I can move forward. Right now, there is no peace for me because the heart tugs but the will is weak.

37″Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; 38and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

The above verse too is very heavy upon me. I suppose I shall tell the Lord to just wait. Wait for me to discern what I want. Meantime, Lord, please throw a few good people along my paths to fasten things because I am an impatient person.