I skipped my voluntary pastoral care last week. It was due to the last minute work for the event at College General and also the sudden flood at my apartment whereby I couldn’t drive out of my own apartment grounds!
I phoned Sr C.A. and told her about it. Then, when I met both she and Sr. I on Thursday at CG, I felt a bit guilty like I am ’shirking’ my duty. However, thank God I was busy helping to scoop the dishes when I saw Sr. I. This way she knows I am not idling but really sweating under the hot tent ‘cos the caterer did not have enough helpers so we took over.
(photo is a random photo taken by someone who placed it on Facebook. In case people thinks I purposely camwhore for credit)
LOL, I am such a little mouse. Though it is a voluntary work and I am ’shirking’ duty for church related event, I still feel scared that they may think I am only playing around, coming and going as I like.
Tomorrow, I will be looking forward to return to my routine of 11 am to 1 pm visit to the hospital. I am rather worried to hear of bad news. I am rather sad about seeing those people I know slipping further in their health. All these are to be expected. I have been silently praying for them. When I attend the Novena, my prayer for the sick comes deep from my heart. I want them to be well. Being only a stranger, I can already feel the frustrations of seeing them falling deeper and deeper into ill health, sometimes too fast and leads to deaths. So, I cannot imagine how they feel and how worried their loved ones are.
For that, I must pray for God’s strength to give me that extra ounce of guts to walk into the wards and face it. In a cancer hospital, there aren’t many miracles and there aren’t many good news. I guess it is one of the most depressing place on earth and I thank God that I have my first taste of pastoral at one of the most challenging situation.
I am still sitting on my CPE application and haven’t contacted the nun in Petaling Jaya. I am not sure why. Discernment, discernment and more discernment. Who knows, someone may finally bring the course to Penang.
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