I will not reflect on the Shalom but focus on what I found in Our Daily Bread. This little paragraph makes me so tired.
In giving of ourselves, we manifest the essence of Jesus’ character, for it has always been His nature to think more about others than He thinks of Himself.
I have always put my pains, fears, worries aside since I was small so that I do not cause anyone else to worry about me. For example, once, I was almost knocked down by a bike when crossing the road. I was 10 years old and was on my way to the post office to buy first day cover for my brother. I dare not tell my mom about it because I do not want her to worry. Actually, I was already knocked down and on the ground.
Another time, I had a miscarriage with my first pregnancy and I too dare not tell my mom because I do not want her to worry. When my son was dying, I dare not tell my inlaws or siblings because I do not want them to worry. It has always been giving, shouldering and thinking of others.
When another mom’s child was dying, I gave my all to her. I never expect anything in return. But our friendship soured because she told another person what I confided to her in my moments of vulnerability. There is nothing more hurtful to hear from a third person what we told another person in private. Especially if the third person is a total stranger to us.
And so we must ask ourselves: Do we consider others’ interests more important than our own? Do we get as excited about what God is doing in and through them as we do about what He is doing in and through us? Do we long to see others grow in grace and gain recognition, though it may have been our efforts that made them successful? Do we find satisfaction in seeing our spiritual children surpass us in the work they are called to do? If so, such is the measurement of greatness.
To the above questions, yes, I do. But I am human and I am sick and I am tired when the very people we trusted failed to live up to our very low expectations. I have very little expectations but when that too are not returned to us in appreciation, then, what is left is a fool. I have been through that too many times and wonder if I should just wear the sign?
The more you love the Lord, the more you will love others.
This is the reason why I hate to face the Bible too closely. It is very frightening to be close to the Lord because many things will be revealed to me. Friends will turn to foes. Smiling faces will show their fangs. I want to just sail through life without the in-depth sight. It is less tiring that way.
Quotes taken from Our Daily Bread
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