My relative is going for chemotheraphy tomorrow and the wife has asked a few of her siblings to help her prepare meals for the husband. She didn’t ask me. Not even simple drinks. I do feel a wee bit hurt because I had asked my hubby to offer her my home in case she needs a rest as my house is the nearest. And I had asked her personally if she wants me to prepare the meals when she complained about the hospitals service ‘toxic’ meals not suitable for cancer patient.
Today, my housekeeper who is also a relative brought a packet of herbs to me. She was asked to prepare it but being a housekeeper, she didn’t have the time. She has worked with me for more than 10 years and no one knows me better than her. I had shown her that whatever I do, I do it because it is me and not I have any motives of evangelizing.
I have never uttered a single ministering. I had told them, “In this situation, please find a faith, doesn’t matter if you want to pray to Guan Yin or Buddha. But you need faith.”
I am lying if I say I am a little hurt. I am actually rather sad that they had chosen NOT to get me to do it and instead seek others help who are staying far away. They know I am capable of cooking because I have even cooked my own confinement meals. The only reason I can think of is because I am not ‘one of them’ anymore. I am Christian. The scary Christians who are too eager to pounce on dying people to tell them that Jesus will give them eternal life. (sarcasm, ok?)
I have battled with this conversion for many years. And I know the Lord will grant me the patience to deal with people like that. Some of them even avoided calling me auntie and will avoid meeting me. Well, not that it matters but it still sucks.
Still, it is rather silly to feel hurt over things like these. I am going to force myself to wake up at 6 am tomorrow and find solitude in the Lord to grant me the patience. I shall pray discreetly for his health and that in their times of sufferings, they will find comfort in whatever god they want to choose.
May 12th, 2008 at 8:35 am
Petty minds shall find their way out of their confusion.
Be patient.
May 12th, 2008 at 11:24 am
Or maybe, they think being Christian, you’ve left behind all related Chinese customs such as traditional healing e.g. herbs etc? Unless they throw your gifts of e.g. food, there could always be another reason that may not be what you think.
May 13th, 2008 at 12:40 am
You have a kind and compassionate heart to want to help them. May be they are shy (segan) and don’t want to trouble you. Hope you feel better after praying.