God’s given children

 *This post may not be suitable for all audiences and is meant for Christians who understand my plight.  So your comments are not welcome unless you agree with me.*

When I was struggling with my faith, I never know what kind of mother I will turn out to be.  Back then, life was all about adjusting fengshui, making sure that we did not anger the ancestors, feeding them on every festive occasions and so on.  It was all about, if I give you something, you have to make sure your grandkids are healthy etc etc.  It was like a tit-for-tat kind of deal.

This is more so when I had to bear the heavy duty of ‘taking care’ of my inlaws.  Then, fate has all of my boys turned to Christianity.  I never asked them, they wanted to ‘join’ me as the community is really vibrant, with classes, gatherings and parties.

Then, I found that Christianity is not about ‘tit-for-tat’.  It is about being trusting in God.  I then accept that I alone cannot bring up these little men who will be big men one day.   Nothing I do is ever  sufficient.  Only God can guide them.

As they are now in their teens, I realised that these few years, the Lord has done marvelous things to them.   I cannot describe exactly how but I know I will never be capable of bringing up children like them.  When I see how the older ones dotted over the young ones, I know they are the greatest brothers.  I could never, in my humanly way, teach little things like these.  Like buying little presents to please the young ones.  Or keeping a slice of chocolate for him and etc.  Those are love that overflows from God’s love.

These few evenings, the eldest one has taken the youngest down for a run in the park.  When all four of them ran back home, with the apple red cheeks and sweaty hairs on the little one, I know only God can gives me this kind of happiness.  When we settled down for our meal, with hubby just back home from work, no amount of thanksgiving is suffice to tell the Lord how thankful I am that I know Him.  How thankful that the Lord blesses this home with such happiness and contentment.  That we never have to live a day full of worries or in need of anything.

Therefore, I pray that all families have the same kind of happiness that pervades from just  being in Christ. Christ who provides His grace.  Like His words, “My Grace is sufficient for you.”

Thank you, Lord.