Since I came back from KL, I have been awfully sleepy all the time. So, I spent several hours in the afternoon doing nothing but half-napping, with music in my ears and a BM Bible in my hands. Sometimes, I am not sure if I am reading, or listening or doing both without actually reading or listening.
But the weird thing is I seem to be going through lines in the Old Testament and New Testament that have almost similar messages. It is about not knowing things and yet, having faith that Jesus said it is ok, everything is alright. Like,
‘Hey, leave it to Me, it’s cool, no problem.’ That kind of assurance can only comes from the Divine.
Today, I went to interview two guys about some sensitive issues. I didn’t have the guts to take this up initially. So, I wrote to my mentor. Funnily enough, after I clicked the ‘Send’ button, before he even revert to me, I decided that I am not going to be meek about it.
So, after that interview, I called someone in KL. And that person, though able to assist me, said he doesn’t want to be quoted. He asked me to find the highest authority. And looking at it, I have no choice but to pick up that phone and dial the number, maybe on Monday. Meeting Bro. Paul and then, the Bishop are scary enough. Now, it is someone even higher. Lucky that I had met him at College General before and he seems like a nice, patient kind of person so it is not as scary as talking to the Bishop.
Things are going at such a crazy pace, sometimes, I wonder if it is me that is doing all these. Of course, like St. Paul, it is the Lord working through me. I have emptied myself and allow the Lord to guide me. Sometimes, when I am driving to a destination, I would pray out loud, “Oh God…are you sure I am able to tackle this? Are you sure, huh?”
And the amazing thing is, things happened at such a lovely timing that the only reason I can explain it is Divine intervention.
Maybe I should also jot down how relieved I am that someone is able to meet us on Monday. I know in my heart, that will help to clear a lot of misunderstandings and I hope it brings some peace to the place. Again, I know that I wouldn’t have done so much if not for the Divine. I guess God has placed me somewhere in the middle so that I could bring some sense to the people when every party are turning against him. I guess I have faith in people as much as I have faith in God. And to think that this is no ordinary man but………….
Lastly, I am so happy for Bro. Paul for the Dato’ title he gets today. I feel so proud having met the man and interviewed him.
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