My conversion story - Part 4

(It only takes me one hour to write this conversion story but I decided to break it down into parts because of the different phases I went through where religion is concerned. If you are easily offended or love to nag, please refrain from reading, ok?)

Part 1/4 is here.

Part 2/4 is here.

And this is the final part.

Well, you would think that Doc C, being a Christian would pounce on me with his belief in Jesus Christ. He doesn’t. Instead, it was me who asked him to read Psalm 23 at the funeral. That’s why until today, I avoided hearing Psalm 23 during the season of Lent. It is still that painful. And I hate it when people sang the Psalm 23 like half dead like that.

Anyway…after my son died, Doc C and I got into some work projects. We kept in touch. But he never ‘talk God’ with me. That’s why I like Doc C and call him my saviour. He never cause me allergies to Jesus by bringing in God when I wasn’t ready.

And then, I decided to seek more information on Christianity. I wanted to go for lessons. That’s how I ended up in Holy Spirit Church (before it becomes a Cathedral). But guess what? I didn’t know that’s the church Doc C goes to. I registered for the RCIA, batch 2002-2003. And one day, I told him I am ’studying’ Christianity and our conversation turned out that’s the church he belongs!

So, he asked his matron (now my godmother) to guide me and I flew through RCIA. I got pregnant midway and was ordered complete bed rest due to pre-eclampsia and missed a lot of lessons. But overall, I was one of the more inquisitive ’student’ and I am blessed with a ‘clever beyond normal people’ with my faith. Hehehe, self praise is no praise, I know.

Therefore, my conversion to Catholicism is all God’s grace. He has plans for me and at the time when my son was struggling for his life, I probably didn’t see that it will be a life changing experience for me. Now, I look back and realise that God has given me a special child who brought me some heartaches but at the same time, the opportunity to discover the strength I have within me.

I also knew Jesus Christ from the experience. Otherwise, today, I will still probably think of Jesus as the barefoot, long hair, flowy robe, unemployed wanderer who lurks around hospitals, waiting for people to die and claim the souls. Hahaha, ignore me. So, if other people have the same kind of wrong perception and may show some disrespect to my Lord, I do not mind because I know they do not know Him. I just pray that more people will come to know Jesus as the personal friend.

You may wonder, how da hell can one get to know Jesus as a real person? You will if you have opened your heart to know Him. You will begin to see things that you were blinded to before. When you open the Bible, the Word of God will leap and capture you. However, don’t make the mistake I made by reading the Bible at face value. It is not a book. It has that mysterious aura that goes deep into your soul. Very much like how you watch a ‘feel good’ movie and you feel like you are part of the story. All the heart-warming, encouraging motivation contain in those words.

You need to treat the Bible as the medium that will communicate what you want to know. Yes, this medium is not like the SOB conman I met. This medium of God’s Word is something that will touched you. And even if you have no inclination to open up a Bible, if your heart is open, you will find God’s little promptings every where. Just like how you managed to read through these four boring posts of mine.

Due to my varied religious background, the misgivings I had gone through, I think I am one of the most understanding Christians around when it comes to evangelizing. I place my trust in the Lord to do the work and I will just stay in the background. I would never preach my belief on someone who is not ready. I don’t want to cause allergies of JesusChristitis LOL to people.

When someone is ready and God is ready, they will meet. Just like how I turned from one traditional, superstitious Chinese woman to a Catholic.

To all those who read from Part 1 to Part 4, thanks for reading because I hope you are somehow enlightened. God bless. Amen.