You know what some athletes do before their big game? They pray. And when they win, they pray again.
So, I am going to pray too. I pray that I can whack some people because I want to.
I don’t care that it is all about community.
I don’t care that it is not about winning.
I don’t care what they preach.
I am going to whack anyway.
Because I want to whack.
I do things because I have my evil intent.
My evil need to prove something.
My dark humour of doing some things that I want to do.
And you know what? Sometimes, it is much kinder to do something evil to appease ourself than to do nice things that please others but in the long run, we allowed the evil to eat up our total self. So much so that we no longer recognise the true self, the one with the good and bad sides.
So, it is good to be selfish, evil, obnoxious and be a biatch. It is good for the soul. And when the soul is happy, I can make others happy too.
So, help me Lord. Give me iron arms. Hahaha.
And if I did find the guts to whack, then, I thank you Lord.
August 18th, 2008 at 3:24 pm
HI Lillian
Ha ha ha…. You are so funny. So human and so normal, especially when you are a mummy yourself(Need to be a good example all the time?). You have always shown us the real person and not a person with a mask on.
Sometimes we just are just not angels. So I guess it is normal to feel evil and think evil.
Just be yourself. God understands even those around you may not.
Thanks for sharing your life. I really enjoyed reading faith journey.