Ooops?

I did something that I never thought Ms. Perfect and Organised like me can do. I committed something that makes me wonder if I have gone senile, lapsed or maybe it is just to prove that I too can make mistakes.

I forget my lector’s duty on Sunday 7 am mass. I am the one who arranged the roster, making sure I enter all the dates into my diary in my mobile phone and I made a boo-boo of entering the wrong date.

Instead of Sunday 13th September, I entered as 20th September. So, here I was practising reading for 25th Sunday since Sunday because I am preparing for this weekend mass.

The funny thing is I went to the 10 am mass, thinking how beautiful the reading is when it should have been my reading. And I didn’t know I made a boo-boo until the first reader gently reminded me. Otherwise, I would have gone to this Sunday’s morning mass and wonder why there is another reader already.

I suppose I am going through one of those phases where I realised that religion is not the balm for all. In as much as I want to believe that it will help all and sundry, I guess there are things that we can only do so much. It is times like these when I have to depend on St. James epistle where he said that we do not get what we prayed for because we are praying for the wrong thing.

I went for confession few days ago. But I only partially explained my situation. I cannot go deeper into the frustrations of how angry I am at the superficial world and the hypocrisy that each of us carry around each day.

Maybe I will take comfort in the earliest Bible verses that touched me. Jesus said cast your burdens unto Me.

So, yeah, I forget.