Beginning of this year, I had wanted to volunteer time at the old folks home near my place. It is just midway between my son’s kindie and my home. So, I figure out that it will be kind of nice to spend a few days of the week over there doing pastoral care.
However, my eldest son crashed one of our cars and I was without transport for several months and I couldn’t do the voluntary work. After that, I took the pyscho-spirituality course by Fr. Huan which lasts for about two months.
Now, I am terribly interested in video editing and that takes a lot of time. Mornings are when I am totally free with no disturbances. One cannot do a good editing if one has to stop to wash the boy’s butt, cook for them, listen to their squabbles or stories they need to tell me. The mind cannot concentrate and the train of thoughts will be lost with all those mundane things I have to attend to.
So, mornings look like a great time for me to catch up with video editing, writing some paid posts to make some moolahs, maintain the sites that I am responsible for and etc. I suppose I am better off without any fixed volunteer job.
I owe it to myself to spend time in the mornings doing what I love. Whether it is just to hang around the morning markets to get the foodstuffs for the meals, taking a long time to sip coffee at the lively kopitiam in Air Putih market, waste some money at Coffee Beans with my laptop, being home alone with no one to disturb me, grocery shopping at Tesco or whatever. So, yeah, no voluntary pastoral care for this year at least. It will be wicked to burn some money shopping alone or spend RM30 on one breakfast and coffee at some coffee joint. I am worth it. Oh ya, not forgetting time to ponder over the Word of God with no one to hijack that solitude moment.
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